Sometimes, I wonder what being a creative is all about? Normally, I’d jump from different forms of art, trying to find the perfect art form that fits my way of being. I love to draw, write and sometimes mess with dj software and make beats. I love all these art forms. But I feel unfocused… but maybe they all feed off of each other. Like they blend together to make even more unique and creative works of art.

For example, writing and music. When I hear or make music, I tend to have a scene or a moment of new or already designed characters sitting around, watching tv or having a heart to heart scenario. That’s what happened when I wrote the first moment in my fragmented story, “The Concepts.”

I think I was listening to a sad indie rock song. Maybe the band “Good morning” and their song “you.”

When I first heard it, all I could think about who the characters were. And why were they sitting in a cafe covered in romantic decorations and flowers everywhere. Then the main character Jeff, looking down in his cappuccino, with a sad look on his face. And why was he sitting across from a green skinned woman that looked like the bride of Frankenstein.

But honestly, before the scene came to mind. It was a build up from a previous world building experiment that I couldn’t figure out the plot. But eventually it came to me once I discovery written the setting of the scene, listening to Good Morning.

As I’m writing this, I realised I have so many questions left unsolved. But they seem to solve themselves when I just acted. But the one question I’ve been asking myself for years is what it means to be a creator. And the closest idea I have is this. Because it feels like breathing. Maybe being a creator is all about play. Maybe it’s picking up legos from a toy box of interests and trying to see what fits. Like a child coming up with a wild story because they have no filters on their creativity. And that makes unique stories and ideas.

But everyone plays, or expresses themselves differently. And that’s a beautiful thing.

I think maybe there’s more than one reason of what it means to be a creator. it just depends on the person and what gives them the spark of joy. And saying there’s an absolute way to figure it out that is universally true for everyone seems like a lie to me. I could be wrong. But I think my breathing idea, works for me. When I write or draw, it feels easy to pick up a pencil and just play in my sandbox I call my notebook. And maybe all being a creative person is, is doing something that’s exciting and fun and as easy as breathing. But what do I know. Im just a person, playing with ideas. And that’s ok that I don’t know.

Thank you for reading. Tell me what you think about this idea.